Well, confronting the people who are trying to hurt you is always a good decision, but you also have to think of the negative outcomes that could possibly come from doing this. Sure there's a possibility of them actually hearing you out, but lets be realistic about this. You're going to confront a group of people who want you dead, so you're going to choose to go about this by confronting them. Chances are, they'll agree to hearing you out under special circumstances. Gangs will take any chance they necessarily can in order to corner you and get you along, thus being able to easily take advantage of you and further harm you like they have before. I'm not trying to say that they'll most definitely do this, heck every gang and person is different, but it's highly likely that they could use you trying to confront them to their advantage in order to perhaps harm you even further than they already have. Heck, for all I know confronting them could be the best decision you've made in your life thus far. This is entirely your choice, and what you choose to do is going to be your decision. You shouldn't sit back and allow them to continue holding a sense of fear overtop your head, but you shouldn't make any decisions which could possibly either i) cause the death of you or ii) make everything which you're going through right now even more dreadful and full of issues. Don't get me wrong, I do think that confronting them at this point is probably the best thing for you to do, but before you go out and risk yourself, you should at least think of doing it in a smart manner. What I mean is this: Meet them at a public place, rather somewhere where they could easily manipulate you and all that other stuff you probably shouldn't be thinking of. Instead of meeting them in the alley, try to meet them at a public park during the day, or anything of a similar variety. While meeting them 'prepared' with a weapon or whatever might be a good idea now, to them it could possibly mean that you're trying to impose a threat or some other form of danger. This is all up in the air, but perhaps try to think about whether or not you would want to meet up with them armed or not. Either way, the outcome would likely be the same.
Another option which you always have, which pretty much sucks beyond belief, is the option of fleeing the situation permanently. You keep running as you've said, but have you ever thought about running away entirely from your issues? Moving to another city so that you won't have to deal with the threats and paranoia? Heck, lets face it, what do you feel is the chances of you still feeling paranoid and uncertain of a situation despite you being on 'good grounds' with them in the future? I've had friends who have gone through similar problems, and as much as I'd like to boast their success stories, most of them still went on with a fear of paranoia hanging over their head. Where I live isn't as crime/gang infested as Chicago, but there are our own little gangs everywhere you turn. Every gang operates differently, and with that you need to decide for yourself what's best for you. Would you rather confront them, continue running, or move away for your own mental and physical health?
Lastly, as much as I'd love to say "CALL 911!", we both know that this is by far the smartest thing you could do at this point. It could provide you a good sense of security and help for the time being, but what's going to happen once a year lapses? Two years? When the cops forget about the whole ordeal, but you're left still trying to get over the paranoia. Gangs hold grudges, simple as that. Most of them hold even worse grudges over snitches. (No, I'm not trying to implement a sense of fear, but I'm trying to give a realistic answer. :P) Just try to do what's best for you, and remember that there's always more choices out there in the world other than "continuing to run away" and "confronting them."
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